What life is this?

heyyaaa, readers...
this is my second day of working after a spentfulllll week holiday.. *is it any meaning for spentful?*
but i really mean it.. SPENTFUL.. i don't want to count how much i have spent for this bloody holiday...
i went to brastagi with Eric CS, for his farewell.. okay, it's the most "galau" day.. seeing couples everywhere..
oh Jesus Christ...i never know having a LDR would be super killing like this.. *sigh*
and then, i went to karaoke and hung out at Matador with Eric also.. that day, i cried a lot.. because Eric would leave the next day... when they recalled memories and everything, i just couldn't stand it.. pluss.. Eric's face when he cried, nobody would stand that..
at first, i didn't plan to cry, but Eric started it first.. since we were inside Matador, so i cried a little bit *without any stupid sound* haha
but... when we were going home, and we were outside of that Matador, he started to cry and hug all of us..
that's the moment when i burst my tears out loud.. so sad.. huks..
so, the next day, early in the morning, we sent Eric to airport.. i didn't plan to cry.. but, the fact is... i cried... again.. haha..
and in the afternoon, i got a sudden BBM from virgo.. he asked me out with Angel and HJ.. yes.. which meanss.. spent money.. again.. a lot..
the next day after that, i went to watch fast 5 with Suryady and Randy.. had a great day though...
even i couldn't imagine how much money have i spent.. -____-
actually i plan to save more money... i have a lot of things i want to buy.. but cannot.. huhuhu..

yesterday, i cried *again*
i don't know why, but every Monday i have super terrible mood..
seems like every Monday i cry.. -_____-
not every Monday, even everyday i have bad mood..
and recently i cried a lot..
yess, i know, stupid and pity..
but that can make me feel better..

i'm so sensitive lately..
i hate myself for being like this..
do u know how it feels when u're super tired after doing most of the household chores and yet u're being scolded all the time..
what do they want actually?
i try to be a good child for them.. but seems like everything i have done is not good enough..
my feeling hurt the most when they scolded me about Ethan..
they say they would give my lovely Ethan to somebody else..
i really can't stand those words..
i couldn't imagine what will happen to me if i lose Ethan..
he's the cutest thing on earth i've ever had..
i just love him very much..

oh yes.. for another him..
i love u so much and i desperately missing u..
good luck for your quiz..
seems like u're super busy, ha? :p
i watched a movie last night and i found this quote which is so me.. XD
"Life without him will be unimaginable" *this is so trueeeeeeeeee!!!*

okay, i think it's enough for my long long unimportant post..
will update later if i have time.. ;)

Regards,

Jowi :D :) :| :( :'(