Life has been so hard lately

yes.. life has been so hard lately.. i'm dying inside.. everything have been so hard..
it's even harder when u have to keep it for yourself..
it hurts so bad.. being unwanted..
u told me that it's tired to talk to me..
no need then..
u'll never understand me..
neither will i understand u..

i want to escape.. anywhere but here..
from this place called "home"

maybe ppl will say that i'm thinking too much..
maybe ppl will say that i'm over-reacting..
it's just too complicated..

i try to be grateful..
i try to make myself happy..
it didn't work..

i'm just too tired of everything..
maybe silence is the best way out of all..
i give up..

Regards,

Jowi